Unload.

A distance of 3 hours
and mother's worry
and privilege of time


kept us apart.


if we meet each other
will I crumble?

all the words
I am too weary to type
will you hear it?

my midnight tears
will they fall at your sight?


I just want to see you
and talk to you
until 3am becomes 4am
and so it ticks


I just want to fall apart before you.


Allow me to break before you now-
come dawn, I will rise with the Sun.

Remind me again.

"have you been gaining weight?"

Thank you

for reminding me

that I am fat.

I'm sorry, but the cakes are delicious.

that no guy will love me for me.

I'm sorry, that I am not pretty enough.

that it is the first thing noticed.

I'm sorry, I suck at making good impressions.

that the world only wants superficial things.

I'm sorry, I am not in the back of your head.

Will you jeer when I want to exercise?

Or will you cheer me on?

After all, the world wants

healthy sized girls.

I wish you didn't remind me

of what I can't be.

Tunes.

When Imagine Dragon's Amsterdam plays,
I remember how you wanted to go there.
When McFly's Love is Easy plays,
I remember how much you loved the band.
When Paramore's Still Into You plays,
I remember how you sang to it happily when you drive.

All these songs
they remind me of you,
and so I miss you-

but here
is where those words will remain.

How could a commoner
be with a prince?

I don't believe in fairy tales.

'are you okay?'

Just simple three words
'are you okay'
could shatter my guard.

There was no one
who has asked.

It is sad
that no one bothered to ask
as much as it is something to be proud of
that I am seen as strong enough
that no one bothered to ask.

Every moment, in pretence.
Everyday conflicted.
Forever untold.

Please don't ask-
the wall took me years,
and my answers are practised.

Just stay,
and I will be okay.

Fade into sunset.

I have lost
my knight
in rusty armour

And as I hear,

"where is my phone?"
"wait, what was I doing again?"
"I can't read this, too small"

I can hear her
fading away
into the sunset of her age.

It will happen again,
I can see it coming.