Aida K.

If I see you again
I will not explain anything
I will not explain myself
We're way past that.

If I see you again
I will never ask what happened
Between us
Warm, then cold days later

If I see you again
I will ask of the present
and wish for a future
Our guard is up, I should know

If I see you again
I will wonder if you will ever know
or if you will want to hear
How could you, you're way past that

If I see you again
I will keep my distance
as you yours
I will hurt you no more.

If I see you again.

Expensive

if one of us has to go
i’d rather hope you go first

at least i could be there for you
for the rest of your life

and loneliness to you
is solitude to me

a second spent on me
is a second repaid to you

for the rest of my life
i am eternally indebted

Merry Christmas Mr Lawrence

If only
memories locked in
recorded taps on ivories
would stay where it belongs

It would not have rained
despite the scorching sun
and the river
remain dammed.

I tire
of memories
coming and leaving
as it pleases

Why did I lie?

"Conveniently amused
and lively laughter,
almost always lonely,"
you said

Loud for a sizable public
Specific to present subject
Either truth or imagination
.. me.

You knew my safe place
Aisles of inked bound papers
A balance between solitude
and selective chatters.

Silly me
why did I lie-
"Past tense?"
As if.

Oh I love you still
Jokes ever so disappointing
Open yet private
The Chakra to my Fissure

Fear has its cost.
The one that got away
Away you go, now
to she who sees you better.